《2 new+moon新月》第85章

I　gnawed　on　my　lip　for　a　second。　Was　this　a　secret；　or　not？　And　if　it　was；　then　who　was　my　greatest　
allegiance　to？　Jacob；　or　Alice？　
It　was　too　hard　to　keep　secrets；　I　decided。　Jacob　knew　everything；　why　not　Alice；　too？　
〃See；　well；　he"s…　sort　of　a　werewolf；〃　I　admitted　in　a　rush。　〃The　Quileutes　turn　into　wolves　when　there　
are　vampires　around。　They　know　Carlisle　from　a　long　time　ago。　Were　you　with　Carlisle　back　then？〃　
Alice　gawked　at　me　for　a　moment；　and　then　recovered　herself；　blinking　rapidly。　〃Well；　I　guess　that　
explains　the　smell；〃　she　muttered。　〃But　does　it　explain　what　I　didn"t　see？〃　She　frowned；　her　porcelain　
forehead　creasing。　
〃The　smell？〃　I　repeated。　
〃You　smell　awful；〃　she　said　absently；　still　frowning。　〃A　werewolf？　Are　you　sure　about　that？〃　
〃Very　sure；〃　I　promised；　wincing　as　I　remembered　Paul　and　Jacob　fighting　in　the　road。　〃I　guess　you　
weren"t　with　Carlisle　the　last　time　there　were　werewolves　here　in　Forks？〃　
〃No。　I　hadn"t　found　him　yet。〃　Alice　was　still　lost　in　thought。　Suddenly；　her　eyes　widened；　and　she　turned　
to　stare　at　me　with　a　shocked　expression。　〃Your　best　friend　is　a　werewolf？〃　
I　nodded　sheepishly。　
〃How　long　has　this　been　going　on？〃　
〃Not　long；〃　I　said；　my　voice　sounding　defensive。　〃He"s　only　been　a　werewolf　for　just　a　few　weeks。〃　
She　glowered　at　me。　〃A　young　werewolf？　Even　worse！　Edward　was　right—you"re　a　mag　for　danger。　
Weren"t　you　supposed　to　be　staying　out　of　trouble？〃　
〃There"s　nothing　wrong　with　werewolves；〃　I　grumbled；　stung　by　her　critical　tone。　
〃Until　they　lose　their　tempers。〃　She　shook　her　head　sharply　from　side　to　side。　〃Leave　it　to　you；　Bella。　
Anyone　else　would　be　better　off　when　the　vampires　left　town。　But　you　have　to　start　hanging　out　with　the　
first　monsters　you　can　find。〃　
I　didn"t　want　to　argue　with　Alice—I　was　still　trembling　with　joy　that　she　was　really；　truly　here；　that　I　could　
touch　her　marble　skin　and　hear　her　windchime　voice—but　she　had　it　all　wrong。　
〃No；　Alice；　the　vampires　didn"t　really　leave—not　all　of　them；　anyway。　That"s　the　whole　trouble。　If　it　
weren"t　for　the　werewolves；　Victoria　would　have　gotten　me　by　now。　Well；　if　it　weren"t　for　Jake　and　his　
friends；　Laurent　would　have　gotten　me　before　she　could；　I　guess；　so—〃　
〃Victoria？〃　she　hissed。　〃Laurent？〃　
I　nodded；　a　teensy　bit　alarmed　by　the　expression　in　her　black　eyes。　I　pointed　at　my　chest。　〃Danger　
mag；　remember？〃　
She　shook　her　head　again。　〃Tell　me　everything—start　at　the　beginning。〃　
I　glossed　over　the　beginning；　skipping　the　motorcycles　and　the　voices；　but　telling　her　everything　else　right　
up　to　today"s　misadventure。　Alice　didn"t　like　my　thin　explanation　about　boredom　and　the　cliffs；　so　I　
hurried　on　to　the　strange　flame　I"d　seen　on　the　water　and　what　I　thought　it　meant。　Her　eyes　narrowed　
almost　to　slits　at　that　part。　It　was　strange　to　see　her　look　so…　so　dangerous—like　a　vampire。　I　
swallowed　hard　and　went　on　with　the　rest　about　Harry。　
She　listened　to　my　story　without　interrupting。　Occasionally；　she　would　shake　her　head；　and　the　crease　in　
her　forehead　deepened　until　it　looked　like　it　was　carved　permanently　into　the　marble　of　her　skin。　She　
didn"t　speak　and；　finally；　I　fell　quiet；　struck　again　by　the　borrowed　grief　at　Harry"s　passing。　I　thought　of　
Charlie；　he　would　be　home　soon。　What　condition　would　he　be　in？　
〃Our　leaving　didn"t　do　you　any　good　at　all；　did　it？〃　Alice　murmured。　
I　laughed　once—it　was　a　slightly　hysterical　sound。　〃That　was　never　the　point；　though；　was　it？　It"s　not　like　
you　left　for　my　benefit。〃　
Alice　scowled　at　the　floor　for　a　moment。　〃Well…　I　guess　I　acted　impulsively　today。　I　probably　shouldn"t　
have　intruded。〃　
I　could　feel　the　blood　draining　from　my　face。　My　stomach　dropped。　〃Don"t　go；　Alice；〃　I　whispered。　My　
fingers　locked　around　the　collar　of　her　white　shirt　and　I　began　to　hyperventilate。　〃Please　don"t　leave　me。〃　
Her　eyes　opened　wider。　〃All　right；〃　she　said；　enunciating　each　word　with　slow　precision。　〃I"m　not　going　
anywhere　tonight。　Take　a　deep　breath。〃　
I　tried　to　obey；　though　I　couldn"t　quite　locate　my　lungs。　
She　watched　my　face　while　I　concentrated　on　my　breathing。　She　waited　till　I　was　calmer　to　ment。　
〃You　look　like　hell；　Bella。〃　
〃I　drowned　today；〃　I　reminded　her。　
〃It　goes　deeper　than　that。　You"re　a　mess。〃　
I　flinched。　〃Look；　I"m　doing　my　best。〃　
〃What　do　you　mean？〃　
〃It　hasn"t　been　easy。　I"m　working　on　it。〃　
She　frowned。　〃I　told　him；〃　she　said　to　herself。　
〃Alice；〃　I　sighed。　〃What　did　you　think　you　were　going　to　find？　I　mean；　besides　me　dead？　Did　you　expect　
to　find　me　skipping　around　and　whistling　show　tunes？　You　know　me　better　than　that。〃　
〃I　do。　But　I　hoped。〃　
〃Then　I　guess　I　don"t　have　the　corner　on　the　idiocy　market。〃　
The　phone　rang。　
〃That　has　to　be　Charlie；〃　I　said；　staggering　to　my　feet。　I　grabbed　Alice"s　stone　hand　and　dragged　her　with　
me　to　the　kitchen。　I　wasn"t　about　to　let　her　out　of　my　sight。　
〃Charlie？〃　I　answered　the　phone。　
〃No；　it"s　me；〃　Jacob　said。　
〃Jake！〃　
Alice　scrutinized　my　expression。　
〃Just　making　sure　you　were　still　alive；〃　Jacob　said　sourly。　
〃I"m　fine。　I　told　you　that　it　wasn"t—〃　
〃Yeah。　I　got　it。　"Bye。〃　
Jacob　hung　up　on　me。　
I　sighed　and　let　my　head　hang　back；　staring　at　the　ceiling。　〃That"s　going　to　be　a　problem。〃　
Alice　squeezed　my　hand。　〃They　aren"t　excited　I"m　here。〃　
〃Not　especially。　But　it"s　none　of　their　business　anyway。〃　
Alice　put　her　arm　around　me。　〃So　what　do　we　do　now？〃　she　mused。　She　seemed　to　talk　to　herself　for　a　
moment。　〃Things　to　do。　Loose　ends　to　tie。〃　
〃What　things　to　do？〃　
Her　face　was　suddenly　careful。　〃I　don"t　know　for　sure…　I　need　to　see　Carlisle。〃　
Would　she　leave　so　soon？　My　stomach　dropped。　
〃Could　you　stay？〃　I　begged。　〃Please？　For　just　a　little　while。　I"ve　missed　you　so　much。〃　My　voice　broke。　
〃If　you　think　that"s　a　good　idea。〃　Her　eyes　were　unhappy。　
〃I　do。　You　can　stay　here—Charlie　would　love　that。〃　
〃I　have　a　house；　Bella。〃　
I　nodded；　disappointed　but　resigned。　She　hesitated；　studying　me。　
〃Well；　I　need　to　go　get　a　suitcase　of　clothes；　at　the　very　least。〃　
I　threw　my　arms　aro