《2 new+moon新月》第84章

strange　orange　color　on　the　water。　
Victoria"s　hair；　blowing　wild　in　the　wind；　the　color　of　fire…　
She"d　been　right　there。　Right　there　in　the　harbor　with　me　and　Jacob。　If　Sam　hadn"t　been　there；　if　it　had　
been　just　the　two　of　us…　？　I　couldn"t　breathe　or　move。　
The　light　flicked　on；　though　my　frozen　hand　had　still　not　found　the　switch。　
I　blinked　into　the　sudden　light；　and　saw　that　someone　was　there；　waiting　for　me。　
17。　VISITOR　
UNNATURALLY　STILL　AND　WHITE；　WITH　LARGE　BLACK　EYES　intent　on　my　face；　my　visitor　
waited　perfectly　motionless　in　the　center　of　the　halt；　beautiful　beyond　imagining。　
My　knees　trembled　for　a　second；　and　I　nearly　fell。　Then　I　hurled　myself　at　her。　
〃Alice；　oh；　Alice！〃　I　cried；　as　I　slammed　into　her。　
I"d　forgotten　how　hard　she　was；　it　was　like　running　headlong　into　a　wall　of　cement。　
〃Bella？〃　There　was　a　strange　mingling　of　relief　and　confusion　in　her　voice。　
I　locked　my　arms　around　her；　gasping　to　inhale　as　much　of　the　scent　of　her　skin　as　possible。　It　wasn"t　like　
anything　else—not　floral　or　spice；　citrus　or　musk。　No　perfume　in　the　world　could　pare。　My　memory　
hadn"t　done　it　justice。　
I　didn"t　notice　when　the　gasping　turned　into　something　else—I　only　realized　I　was　sobbing　when　Alice　
dragged　me　to　the　living　room　couch　and　pulled　me　into　her　lap。　It　was　like　curling　up　into　a　cool　stone；　
but　a　stone　that　was　contoured　fortingly　to　the　shape　of　my　body。　She　rubbed　my　back　in　a　gentle　
rhythm；　waiting　for　me　to　get　control　of　myself。　
〃I"m…　sorry；〃　I　blubbered。　〃I"m　just…　so　happy…　to　see　you！〃　
〃It"s　okay；　Bella。　Everything"s　okay。〃　
〃Yes；〃　I　bawled。　And；　for　once；　it　seemed　that　way。　
Alice　sighed。　〃I"d　forgotten　how　exuberant　you　are；〃　she　said；　and　her　tone　was　disapproving。　
I　looked　up　at　her　through　my　streaming　eyes。　Alice"s　neck　was　tight；　straining　away　from　me；　her　lips　
pressed　together　firmly。　Her　eyes　were　black　as　pitch。　
〃Oh；〃　I　puffed；　as　I　realized　the　problem。　She　was　thirsty。　And　I　smelled　appetizing。　It　had　been　a　while　
since　I"d　had　to　think　about　that　kind　of　thing。　〃Sorry。〃　
〃It"s　my　own　fault。　It"s　been　too　long　since　I　hunted。　I　shouldn"t　let　myself　get　so　thirsty。　But　I　was　in　a　
hurry　today。〃　The　look　she　directed　at　me　then　was　a　glare。　〃Speaking　of　which；　would　you　like　to　
explain　to　me　how　you"re　alive？〃　
That　brought　me　up　short　and　stopped　the　sobs。　I　realized　what　must　have　happened　immediately；　and　
why　Alice　was　here。　
I　swallowed　loudly。　〃You　saw　me　fall。〃　
〃No；〃　she　disagreed；　her　eyes　narrowing。　〃I　saw　you　jump。〃　
I　pursed　my　lips　as　I　tried　to　think　of　an　explanation　that　wouldn"t　sound　nuts。　
Alice　shook　her　head。　〃I　told　him　this　would　happen；　but　he　didn"t　believe　me。　"Bella　promised；"〃　her　
voice　imitated　his　so　perfectly　that　I　iroze　in　shock　while　the　pain　ripped　through　my　torso。　〃"Don"t　be　
looking　for　her　future；　either；"〃　she　continued　to　quote　him。　"〃We"ve　done　enough　damage。〃　
〃But　just　because　I"m　not　looking；　doesn"t　mean　I　don"t　see〃　she　went　on。　〃I　wasn"t　keeping　tabs　on　you；　
I　swear；　Bella。　It"s　just　that　I"m　alreacy　attuned　to　you…　when　I　saw　you　jumping；　I　didn"t　think；　I　just　got　
on　a　plane。　I　knew　I　would　be　too　late；　but　I　couldn"t　do　nothing。　And　then　I　get　here；　thinking　maybe　I　
could　help　Charlie　somehow；　and　you　drive　up。〃　She　shook　her　head；　this　time　in　confusion。　Her　voice　
was　strained。　〃I　saw　you　go　into　the　water　and　I　waited　and　waited　for　you　to　e　up；　but　you　didn"t。　
What　happened？　And　how　could　you　do　that　to　Charlie？　Did　you　stop　to　think　what　this　would　do　to　
him？　And　my　brother？　Do　you　have　any　idea　what　Edward—〃　
I　cut　her　off　then；　as　soon　as　she　said　his　name。　I"d　let　her　go　on；　even　after　I　realized　the　
misunderstanding　she　was　under；　just　to　hear　the　perfect　bell　tone　of　her　voice。　But　it　was　time　to　
interrupt。　
〃Alice；　I　wasn"t　mitting　suicide。〃　
She　eyed　me　dubiously。　〃Are　you　saying　you　didn"t　jump　off　a　cliff？〃　
〃No；　but…〃　I　grimaced。　〃It　was　for　recreational　purposes　only。〃　
Her　expression　hardened。　
〃I"d　seen　some　of　Jacob"s　friends　cliff　diving；〃　I　insisted。　〃It　looked　like…　fun；　and　I　was　bored…〃　
She　waited。　
〃I　didn"t　think　about　how　the　storm　would　affect　the　currents。　Actually；　I　didn"t　think　about　the　water　
much　at　all。〃　
Alice　didn"t　buy　it。　I　could　see　that　she　still　thought　I　had　been　trying　to　kill　myself。　I　decided　to　redirect。　
〃So　if　you　saw　me　go　in；　why　didn"t　you　see　Jacob？〃　
She　cocked　her　head　to　the　side；　distracted。　
I　continued。　〃It"s　true　that　I　probably　would　have　drowned　if　Jacob　hadn"t　jumped　in　after　me。　Well；　
okay；　there"s　no　probably　about　it。　But　he　did；　and　he　pulled　me　out；　and　I　guess　he　towed　me　back　to　
shore；　though　I　was　kind　of　out　for　that　part。　It　couldn"t　have　been　more　than　a　minute　that　I　was　under　
before　he　grabbed　me。　How　e　you　didn"t　see　that？〃　
She　frowned　in　perplexity。　〃Someone　pulled　you　out？〃　
〃Yes。　Jacob　saved　me。〃　
I　watched　curiously　as　an　enigmatic　range　of　emotions　flitted　across　her　face。　Something　was　bothering　
her—her　imperfect　vision？　But　I　wasn"t　sure。　Then　she　deliberately　leaned　in　and　sniffed　my　shoulder。　
I　froze。　
〃Don"t　be　ridiculous；〃　she　muttered；　sniffing　at　me　some　more。　
〃What　are　you　doing？〃　
She　ignored　my　question。　〃Who　was　with　you　out　there　just　now？　It　sounded　like　you　were　arguing。〃　
〃Jacob　Black。　He"s…　sort　of　my　best　friend；　I　guess。　At　least；　he　was…〃　I　thought　of　Jacob"s　angry；　
betrayed　face；　and　wondered　what　he　was　to　me　now。　
Alice　nodded；　seeming　preoccupied。　
〃What？〃　
〃I　don"t　know；〃　she　said。　〃I"m　not　sure　what　it　means。〃　
〃Well；　I"m　not　dead；　at　least。〃　
She　rolled　her　eyes。　〃He　was　a　fool　to　think　you　could　survive　alone。　I"ve　never　seen　anyone　so　prone　to　
lifethreatening　idiocy。〃　
〃I　survived；〃　I　pointed　out。　
She　was　thinking　of　something　else。　〃So；　if　the　currents　were　too　much　for　you；　how　did　this　Jacob　
manage？〃　
〃Jacob　is…　strong。〃　
She　heard　the　reluctance　in　my　voice；　and　her　eyebrows　rose。　
I　gnawed　on　my　lip　for　a　second。　Was　this　a　secret；　or　not？　And　if　it　was；　then　who　was　my　greate