《5 midnight sun午夜阳光》第61章

uld　be　Ephraim　s　own　progeny　that　would　violate　the　treaty　he　d　vowed　to　uphold。　A　grandson；　or　greatgrandson　perhaps。　How　many　years　had　it　been？　Seventy？　I　should　have　realized　that　it　was　not　the　old　men　who　believed　in　the　legends　that　would　be　the　danger。　Of　course；　the　younger　generation　those　who　would　have　been　warned；　but　would　have　thought　the　ancient　superstitions　laughable　of　course　that　was　where　the　danger　of　exposure　would　lie。　I　supposed　this　meant　I　was　now　free　to　slaughter　the　small；　defenseless　tribe　on　the　coastline；　were　I　so　inclined。　Ephraim　and　his　pack　of　protectors　were　long　dead　He　just　thought　it　was　a　silly　superstition；　Bella　said　suddenly；　her　voice　edged　with　a　new　anxiety。　He　didn　t　expect　me　to　think　anything　of　it。　Out　of　the　corner　of　my　eye；　I　saw　her　twist　her　hands　uneasily。　It　was　my　fault；　she　said　after　a　brief　pause；　and　then　she　hung　her　head　as　if　she　were　ashamed。　I　forced　him　to　tell　me。　Why？　It　wasn　t　so　hard　to　keep　my　voice　level　now。　The　worst　was　already　done。　As　long　as　we　spoke　of　the　details　of　the　revelation；　we　didn　t　have　to　move　on　to　the　consequences　of　it。　Lauren　said　something　about　you　she　was　trying　to　provoke　me。　She　made　a　little　face　at　the　memory。　I　was　slightly　distracted；　wondering　how　Bella　would　be　provoked　by　someone　talking　about　me　And　an　older　boy　from　the　tribe　said　your　family　didn　t　e　to　the　reservation；　only　it　sounded　like　he　meant　something　different。　So　I　got　Jacob　alone　and　I　tricked　it　out　of　him。　Her　head　dropped　even　lower　as　she　admitted　this；　and　her　expression　looked　guilty。　I　looked　away　from　her　and　laughed　out　loud。　She　felt　guilty？　possibly　have　done　to　deserve　censure　of　any　kind？　Tricked　him　how？　I　asked。　What　could　she
I　tried　to　flirt　it　worked　better　than　I　thought　it　would；　she　explained；　and　her　voice　turned　incredulous　at　the　memory　of　that　success。　I　could　just　imagine　considering　the　attraction　she　seemed　to　have　for　all　things　male；　totally　unconscious　on　her　part　how　overwhelming　she　would　be　when　she　tried　to　be　attractive。　I　was　suddenly　full　of　pity　for　the　unsuspecting　boy　she　d　unleashed　such　a　potent　force　on。　I　d　like　to　have　seen　that；　I　said；　and　then　I　laughed　again　with　the　black　humor。　I　wished　I　could　have　heard　the　boy　s　reaction；　witnessed　the　devastation　for　myself。　And　you　accused　me　of　dazzling　people　poor　Jacob　Black。　I　wasn　t　as　angry　with　the　source　of　my　exposure　as　I　would　have　expected　to　feel。　He　didn　t　know　better。　And　how　could　I　expect　anyone　to　deny　this　girl　what　she　wanted？　No；　I　only　felt　sympathy　for　the　damage　she　would　have　done　to　his　peace　of　mind。　I　felt　her　blush　heat　the　air　between　us。　out　her　window。　She　didn　t　speak　again。　What　did　you　do　then？　I　prompted。　I　glanced　at　her；　and　she　was　staring　Time　to　get　back　to　the　horror　story。　I　did　some　research　on　the　inter。　Ever　practical。　No；　she　said。　And　did　that　convince　you？　Nothing　fit。　Most　of　it　was　kind　of　silly。　And　then　She　broke　off　again；　and　I　heard　her　teeth　lock　together。　What？　I　demanded。　her？　What　had　she　found？　What　had　made　sense　of　the　nightmare　for　There　was　a　short　paused；　and　then　she　whispered；　I　decided　it　didn　t　matter。　Shock　froze　my　thoughts　for　a　halfsecond；　and　then　it　all　fit　together。　Why　she　d　sent　her　friends　away　tonight　rather　than　escape　with　them。　Why　she　had　gotten　into　my　car　with　me　again　instead　of　running；　screaming　for　the　police　Her　reactions　were　always　wrong　always　pletely　wrong。　herself。　She　invited　it。　She　pulled　danger　toward　How　was　I　supposed　It　didn　t　matter？　I　said　through　my　teeth；　anger　filling　me。　to　protect　someone　so　so　so　determined　to　be　unprotected？　No；　she　said　in　a　low　voice　that　was　inexplicably　tender。　me　what　you　are。　She　was　impossible。　You　don　t　care　if　I　m　a　monster？　No。　If　I　m　not　human？　It　doesn　t　matter　to
I　started　to　wonder　if　she　was　entirely　stable。　I　supposed　that　I　could　arrange　for　her　to　receive　the　best　care　available　Carlisle　would　have　the　connections　to　find　her　the　most　skilled　doctors；　the　most　talented　therapists。　Perhaps　something　could　be　done　to　fix　whatever　it　was　that　was　wrong　with　her；　what　ever　it　was　that　made　her　content　to　sit　beside　a　vampire　with　her　heart　beating　calmly　and　steadily。　I　would　watch　over　the　facility；　naturally；　and　visit　as　often　as　I　was　allowed　You　re　angry；　she　sighed。　I　shouldn　t　have　said　anything。　As　if　her　hiding　these　disturbing　tendencies　would　help　either　of　us。　No。　I　d　rather　know　what　you　re　thinking　even　if　what　you　re　thinking　is　insane。　So　I　m　wrong　again？　she　asked；　a　bit　belligerent　now。　That　s　not　what　I　was　referring　to！　My　teeth　clenched　together　again。　doesn　t　matter　！　I　repeated　in　a　scathing　tone。　She　gasped。　I　m　right？　It　Does　it　matter？　I　countered。　She　took　a　deep　breath。　I　waited　angrily　for　her　answer。　But　I　am　curious。　She　knew　I　was　inhuman；　a　I　Not　really；　she　said；　her　voice　posed　again。　Not　really。　It　didn　t　really　matter。　She　didn　t　care。　monster；　and　this　didn　t　really　matter　to　her。　Aside　from　my　worries　about　her　sanity；　I　began　to　feel　a　swelling　of　hope。　tried　to　quash　it。　What　are　you　curious　about？　I　asked　her。　details。　How　old　are　you？　she　asked。　My　answer　was　automatic　and　ingrained。　And　how　long　have　you　been　seventeen？　I　tried　not　to　smile　at　the　patronizing　tone。　A　while；　I　admitted。　Seventeen。　There　were　no　secrets　left；　only　minor　Okay；　she　said；　abruptly　enthusiastic。　She　smiled　up　at　me。　back；　anxious　again　about　her　mental　health；　she　smiled　wider。　Don　t　laugh；　she　warned。　When　I　stared　I　grimaced。　But　how　can　you　e　out　during　the　daytime？　Her　research　had　not　ted　her　anything　unusual；　I　laughed　despite　her　request。　it　seemed。　Myth；　I　told　her。　Burned　by　the　sun？　Myth。
Sleeping　in　coffins？　Myth。　Sleep　had　not　been　a　part　of　my　life　for　so　long　not　until　these　last　few　nights；　as　I　d　watched　Bella　dreaming　I　can　t　sleep；　I　murmured；　answering　her　question　more　fully。　She　was　silent　for　a　moment。　At　all？　she　asked。　Never；　I　breathed。　I　stared　into　her　eyes；　wide　under　the　thick　fringe　of　lashes；　and　yearned　for　sleep。　Not　for　oblivion；　as　I　had　before；　not　to　escape　boredom；　but　because　I　wanted　to　dream。　Maybe；　if　I　could　be　unconscious；　if　I　could　dream；　I　coul