《夜与日》第11章


as a small boy。 That drew down upon her her mother’s 
fervent embrace; and she was sent back to the nursery 
very proud; and with a mysterious sense of an important 
and unexplained state of things; which time; by degrees; 
unveiled to her。 
There were always visitors—uncles and aunts and cousins 
“from India;” to be reverenced for their relationship 
alone; and others of the solitary and formidable class; 
whom she was enjoined by her parents to “remember all 
your life。” By these means; and from hearing constant 
talk of great men and their works; her earliest conceptions 
of the world included an august circle of beings to 
whom she gave the names of Shakespeare; Milton; 
Wordsworth; Shelley; and so on; who were; for some reason; 
much more nearly akin to the Hilberys than to other 
people。 They made a kind of boundary to her vision of 
life; and played a considerable part in determining her 
scale of good and bad in her own small affairs。 Her descent 
from one of these gods was no surprise to her; but 
matter for satisfaction; until; as the years wore on; the 
privileges of her lot were taken for granted; and certain 
drawbacks made themselves very manifest。 Perhaps it is 
a little depressing to inherit not lands but an example of 
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intellectual and spiritual virtue; perhaps the conclusiveness 
of a great ancestor is a little discouraging to those 
who run the risk of parison with him。 It seems as if; 
having flowered so splendidly; nothing now remained 
possible but a steady growth of good; green stalk and 
leaf。 For these reasons; and for others; Katharine had her 
moments of despondency。 The glorious past; in which men 
and women grew to unexampled size; intruded too much 
upon the present; and dwarfed it too consistently; to be 
altogether encouraging to one forced to make her experiment 
in living when the great age was dead。 
She was drawn to dwell upon these matters more than 
was natural; in the first place owing to her mother’s absorption 
in them; and in the second because a great part 
of her time was spent in imagination with the dead; since 
she was helping her mother to produce a life of the great 
poet。 When Katharine was seventeen or eighteen—that 
is to say; some ten years ago—her mother had enthusiastically 
announced that now; with a daughter to help 
her; the biography would soon be published。 Notices to 
this effect found their way into the literary papers; and 
for some time Katharine worked with a sense of great 
pride and achievement。 
Lately; however; it had seemed to her that they were 
making no way at all; and this was the more tantalizing 
because no one with the ghost of a literary temperament 
could doubt but that they had materials for one of the 
greatest biographies that has ever been written。 Shelves 
and boxes bulged with the precious stuff。 The most private 
lives of the most interesting people lay furled in 
yellow bundles of closewritten manuscript。 In addition 
to this Mrs。 Hilbery had in her own head as bright a vision 
of that time as now remained to the living; and 
could give those flashes and thrills to the old words which 
gave them almost the substance of flesh。 She had no 
difficulty in writing; and covered a page every morning 
as instinctively as a thrush sings; but nevertheless; with 
all this to urge and inspire; and the most devout intention 
to acplish the work; the book still remained unwritten。 
Papers accumulated without much furthering their 
task; and in dull moments Katharine had her doubts 
whether they would ever produce anything at all fit to 
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lay before the public。 Where did the difficulty lie? Not in 
their materials; alas! nor in their ambitions; but in something 
more profound; in her own inaptitude; and above 
all; in her mother’s temperament。 Katharine would calculate 
that she had never known her write for more than 
ten minutes at a time。 Ideas came to her chiefly when 
she was in motion。 She liked to perambulate the room 
with a duster in her hand; with which she stopped to 
polish the backs of already lustrous books; musing and 
romancing as she did so。 Suddenly the right phrase or the 
perating point of view would suggest itself; and she 
would drop her duster and write ecstatically for a few 
breathless moments; and then the mood would pass away; 
and the duster would be sought for; and the old books 
polished again。 These spells of inspiration never burnt 
steadily; but flickered over the gigantic mass of the subject 
as capriciously as a willo’thewisp; lighting now on 
this point; now on that。 It was as much as Katharine 
could do to keep the pages of her mother’s manuscript in 
order; but to sort them so that the sixteenth year of Richard 
Alardyce’s life succeeded the fifteenth was beyond 
her skill。 And yet they were so brilliant; these paragraphs; 
so nobly phrased; so lightninglike in their illumination; 
that the dead seemed to crowd the very room。 Read continuously; 
they produced a sort of vertigo; and set her 
asking herself in despair what on earth she was to do 
with them? Her mother refused; also; to face the radical 
questions of what to leave in and what to leave out。 She 
could not decide how far the public was to be told the 
truth about the poet’s separation from his wife。 She drafted 
passages to suit either case; and then liked each so well 
that she could not decide upon the rejection of either。 
But the book must be written。 It was a duty that they 
owed the world; and to Katharine; at least; it meant more 
than that; for if they could not between them get this 
one book acplished they had no right to their privileged 
position。 Their increment became yearly more and 
more unearned。 Besides; it must be established indisputably 
that her grandfather was a very great man。 
By the time she was twentyseven; these thoughts had 
bee very familiar to her。 They trod their way through 
her mind as she sat opposite her mother of a morning at 
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a table heaped with bundles of old letters and well supplied 
wit
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