《4 breaking dawn破晓》第138章

〃Anesthetic？　But　how　is　that　more　dangerous　than　Jane？〃　
〃Because　he　cuts　off　your　senses　altogether。　No　pain；　but　also　no　sight　or　sound　or　smell。　Total　sensory　
deprivation。　You　are　utterly　alone　in　the　blackness。　You　don"t　even　feel　it　when　they　burn　you。〃　
I　shivered。　Was　this　the　best　we　could　hope　for？　To　not　see　or　feel　death　when　it　came？　
〃That　would　make　him　only　equally　as　dangerous　as　Jane；〃　Edward　went　on　in　the　same　detached　voice；　
〃in　that　they　both　can　incapacitate　you；　make　you　into　a　helpless　target。　The　difference　between　them　is　
like　the　difference　between　Aro　and　me。　Aro　hears　the　mind　of　only　one　person　at　a　time。　Jane　can　only　
hurt　the　one　object　of　her　focus。　I　can　hear　everyone　at　the　same　time。〃　
I　felt　cold　as　I　saw　where　he　was　going。　〃And　Alec　can　incapacitate　us　all　at　the　same　time？〃　I　
whispered。　
〃Yes；〃　he　said。　〃If　he　uses　his　gift　against　us；　we　will　all　stand　blind　and　deaf　until　they　get　around　to　
killingus—maybe　they"ll　simply　burn　us　without　bothering　to　tear　us　apart　first。　Oh；　we　could　try　to　fight；　
but　we"ll　be　more　likely　to　hurt　one　another　than　we　would　be　to　hurt　one　of　them。〃　
We　walked　in　silence　for　a　few　seconds。　
An　idea　was　shaping　itself　in　my　head。　Not　very　promising；　but　better　than　nothing。　
〃Do　you　think　Alec　is　a　very　good　fighter？〃　I　asked。　〃Aside　from　what　he　can　do；　I　mean。　If　he　had　to　
fight　without　his　gift。　I　wonder　if　he"s　ever　even　tried___〃　
Edward　glanced　at　me　sharply。　〃What　are　you　thinking？〃　
I　looked　straight　ahead。　〃Well；　he　probably　can"t　do　that　to　me；　can　he？　If　what　he　does　is　like　Aro　and　
Jane　and　you。　Maybe。。。　if　he"s　never　really　had　to　defend　himself。。。　and　I　learned　a　few　tricks—〃　
〃He"s　been　with　the　Volturi　for　centuries；〃　Edward　cut　me　off；　his　voice　abruptly　panicked。　He　was　
probably　seeing　the　same　image　in　his　head　that　I　was：　the　Cullens　standing　helpless；　senseless　pillars　on　
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thekillingfield—all　but　me。　I"d　be　the　only　one　who　could　fight。　〃Yes；　you"re　surely　immune　to　his　power；　
but　you　are　still　a　newborn；　Bella。　I　can"t　make　you　that　strong　a　fighter　in　a　few　weeks。　I"m　sure　he"s　had　
training。〃　
〃Maybe；　maybe　not。　It"s　the　one　thing　I　can　do　that　no　one　else　can。　Even　if　I　can　just　distract　him　for　a　
while—〃　Could　I　last　long　enough　to　give　the　others　a　chance？　
〃Please；　Bella；〃　Edward　said　through　his　teeth。　〃Let"s　not　talk　about　this。〃　
〃Be　reasonable。〃　
〃I　will　try　to　teach　you　what　I　can；　but　please　don"t　make　me　think　about　you　sacrificing　yourself　as　a　
diversion—〃　He　choked；　and　didn"t　finish。　
I　nodded。　I　would　keep　my　plans　to　myself；　then。　First　Alec　and　then；　if　I　was　miraculously　lucky　enough　
to　win；　Jane。　If　I　could　only　even　things　out—remove　the　Volturi"s　overwhelming　offensive　advantage。　
Maybe　then　there　was　a　chance。。。。　My　mind　raced　ahead。　What　if　I　was　able　to　distract　or　even　take　
them　out？　Honestly；　why　would　either　
Jane　or　Alec　ever　have　needed　to　learn　battle　skills？　I　couldn"t　imagine　petulant　little　Jane　surrendering　
her　advantage；　even　to　learn。　
If　I　was　able　to　kill　them；　what　a　difference　that　would　make。　
〃I　have　to　learn　everything。　As　much　as　you　can　possibly　cram　into　my　head　in　the　next　month；〃　I　
murmured。　
He　acted　as　if　I　hadn"t　spoken。　
Who　next；　then？　I　might　as　well　have　my　plans　in　order　so　that；　if　I　did　live　past　attacking　Alec；　there　
would　be　no　hesitation　in　my　strike。　I　tried　to　think　of　another　situation　where　my　thick　skull　would　give　
me　an　advantage。　I　didn"t　know　enough　about　what　the　others　did。　Obviously；　fighters　like　the　huge　Felix　
were　beyond　me。　I　could　only　try　to　give　Emmett　his　fair　fight　there。　I　didn"t　know　much　about　the　rest　of　
the　Volturi　guard；　besides　Demetri___　
My　face　was　perfectly　smooth　as　I　considered　Demetri。　Without　a　doubt；　he　would　be　a　fighter。　There　
was　no　other　way　he　could　have　survived　so　long；　always　at　the　spear　point　of　any　attack。　And　he　must　
always　lead；　because　he　was　their　tracker—the　best　tracker　in　the　world；　no　doubt。　If　there　had　been　
one　better；　the　Volturi　would　have　traded　up。　Aro　didn"t　surround　himself　with　second　best。　
If　Demetri　didn"t　exist；　then　we　could　run。　Whoever　was　left　of　us；　in　any　case。　My　daughter；　warm　in　
my　arms。。。　Someone　could　run　with　her。　Jacob　or　Rosalie；　whoever　was　left。　
And。。。　if　Demetri　didn"t　exist；　then　Alice　and　Jasper　could　be　safe　forever。　Is　that　what　Alice　had　seen？　
That　part　of　our　family　could　continue？　The　two　of　them；　at　the　very　least。　
Could　I　begrudge　her　that？　
〃Demetri。。。；〃　I　said。　
〃Demetri　is　mine；〃　Edward　said　in　a　hard；　tight　voice。　I　looked　at　him　quickly　and　saw　that　his　expression　
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had　turned　violent。　
〃Why？〃　I　whispered。　
He　didn"t　answer　at　first。　We　were　to　the　river　when　he　finally　murmured；　〃For　Alice。　It"s　the　only　thanks　
I　can　give　her　now　for　the　last　fifty　years。〃　
So　his　thoughts　were　in　line　with　mine。　
I　heard　Jacob"s　heavy　paws　thudding　against　the　frozen　ground。　In　seconds；　he　was　pacing　beside　me；　
his　dark　eyes　focused　on　Renesmee。　
I　nodded　to　him　once；　then　returned　to　my　questions。　There　was　so　little　time。　
〃Edward；　why　do　you　think　Alice　told　us　to　ask　Eleazar　about　the　Volturi？　Has　he　been　in　Italy　recently　
or　something？　What　could　he　know？〃　
〃Eleazar　knows　everything　when　it　es　to　the　Volturi。　I　forgot　you　didn"t　know。　He　used　to　be　one　of　
them。〃　
I　hissed　involuntarily。　Jacob　growled　beside　me。　
〃What？〃　I　demanded；　in　my　head　picturing　the　beautiful　darkhaired　man　at　our　wedding　wrapped　in　a　
long；　ashy　cloak。　
Edward"s　face　was　softer　now—he　smiled　a　little。　〃Eleazar　is　a　very　gentle　person。　He　wasn"t　entirely　
happy　with　
the　Volturi；　but　he　respected　the　law　and　its　need　to　be　upheld。　He　felt　he　was　working　toward　the　
greater　good。　He　doesn"t　regret　his　time　with　them。　But　when　he　found　Carmen；　he　found　his　place　in　this　
world。　They　are　very　similar　people；　both　very　passionate　for　vamp