〃Anesthetic？ But how is that more dangerous than Jane？〃 〃Because he cuts off your senses altogether。 No pain； but also no sight or sound or smell。 Total sensory deprivation。 You are utterly alone in the blackness。 You don"t even feel it when they burn you。〃 I shivered。 Was this the best we could hope for？ To not see or feel death when it came？ 〃That would make him only equally as dangerous as Jane；〃 Edward went on in the same detached voice； 〃in that they both can incapacitate you； make you into a helpless target。 The difference between them is like the difference between Aro and me。 Aro hears the mind of only one person at a time。 Jane can only hurt the one object of her focus。 I can hear everyone at the same time。〃 I felt cold as I saw where he was going。 〃And Alec can incapacitate us all at the same time？〃 I whispered。 〃Yes；〃 he said。 〃If he uses his gift against us； we will all stand blind and deaf until they get around to killingus—maybe they"ll simply burn us without bothering to tear us apart first。 Oh； we could try to fight； but we"ll be more likely to hurt one another than we would be to hurt one of them。〃 We walked in silence for a few seconds。 An idea was shaping itself in my head。 Not very promising； but better than nothing。 〃Do you think Alec is a very good fighter？〃 I asked。 〃Aside from what he can do； I mean。 If he had to fight without his gift。 I wonder if he"s ever even tried___〃 Edward glanced at me sharply。 〃What are you thinking？〃 I looked straight ahead。 〃Well； he probably can"t do that to me； can he？ If what he does is like Aro and Jane and you。 Maybe。。。 if he"s never really had to defend himself。。。 and I learned a few tricks—〃 〃He"s been with the Volturi for centuries；〃 Edward cut me off； his voice abruptly panicked。 He was probably seeing the same image in his head that I was： the Cullens standing helpless； senseless pillars on Page 336 Generatedby ABC Amber LIT Converter； ：。processtext。abclit。html thekillingfield—all but me。 I"d be the only one who could fight。 〃Yes； you"re surely immune to his power； but you are still a newborn； Bella。 I can"t make you that strong a fighter in a few weeks。 I"m sure he"s had training。〃 〃Maybe； maybe not。 It"s the one thing I can do that no one else can。 Even if I can just distract him for a while—〃 Could I last long enough to give the others a chance？ 〃Please； Bella；〃 Edward said through his teeth。 〃Let"s not talk about this。〃 〃Be reasonable。〃 〃I will try to teach you what I can； but please don"t make me think about you sacrificing yourself as a diversion—〃 He choked； and didn"t finish。 I nodded。 I would keep my plans to myself； then。 First Alec and then； if I was miraculously lucky enough to win； Jane。 If I could only even things out—remove the Volturi"s overwhelming offensive advantage。 Maybe then there was a chance。。。。 My mind raced ahead。 What if I was able to distract or even take them out？ Honestly； why would either Jane or Alec ever have needed to learn battle skills？ I couldn"t imagine petulant little Jane surrendering her advantage； even to learn。 If I was able to kill them； what a difference that would make。 〃I have to learn everything。 As much as you can possibly cram into my head in the next month；〃 I murmured。 He acted as if I hadn"t spoken。 Who next； then？ I might as well have my plans in order so that； if I did live past attacking Alec； there would be no hesitation in my strike。 I tried to think of another situation where my thick skull would give me an advantage。 I didn"t know enough about what the others did。 Obviously； fighters like the huge Felix were beyond me。 I could only try to give Emmett his fair fight there。 I didn"t know much about the rest of the Volturi guard； besides Demetri___ My face was perfectly smooth as I considered Demetri。 Without a doubt； he would be a fighter。 There was no other way he could have survived so long； always at the spear point of any attack。 And he must always lead； because he was their tracker—the best tracker in the world； no doubt。 If there had been one better； the Volturi would have traded up。 Aro didn"t surround himself with second best。 If Demetri didn"t exist； then we could run。 Whoever was left of us； in any case。 My daughter； warm in my arms。。。 Someone could run with her。 Jacob or Rosalie； whoever was left。 And。。。 if Demetri didn"t exist； then Alice and Jasper could be safe forever。 Is that what Alice had seen？ That part of our family could continue？ The two of them； at the very least。 Could I begrudge her that？ 〃Demetri。。。；〃 I said。 〃Demetri is mine；〃 Edward said in a hard； tight voice。 I looked at him quickly and saw that his expression Page 337 Generatedby ABC Amber LIT Converter； ：。processtext。abclit。html had turned violent。 〃Why？〃 I whispered。 He didn"t answer at first。 We were to the river when he finally murmured； 〃For Alice。 It"s the only thanks I can give her now for the last fifty years。〃 So his thoughts were in line with mine。 I heard Jacob"s heavy paws thudding against the frozen ground。 In seconds； he was pacing beside me； his dark eyes focused on Renesmee。 I nodded to him once； then returned to my questions。 There was so little time。 〃Edward； why do you think Alice told us to ask Eleazar about the Volturi？ Has he been in Italy recently or something？ What could he know？〃 〃Eleazar knows everything when it es to the Volturi。 I forgot you didn"t know。 He used to be one of them。〃 I hissed involuntarily。 Jacob growled beside me。 〃What？〃 I demanded； in my head picturing the beautiful darkhaired man at our wedding wrapped in a long； ashy cloak。 Edward"s face was softer now—he smiled a little。 〃Eleazar is a very gentle person。 He wasn"t entirely happy with the Volturi； but he respected the law and its need to be upheld。 He felt he was working toward the greater good。 He doesn"t regret his time with them。 But when he found Carmen； he found his place in this world。 They are very similar people； both very passionate for vamp