《4 breaking dawn破晓》第136章

scenery。〃　
Renesmee　frowned　at　him。　
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〃No；　I　don"t　have　to　go　anywhere；〃　he　said　to　her。　Then　he　looked　at　Edward；　his　face　stunned　by　the　
realization　that　he　might　be　wrong。　〃Do　I？〃　
Edward　hesitated。　
〃Spit　it　out；〃　Jacob　said；　his　voice　raw　with　tension。　He　was　right　at　his　breaking　point；　just　like　the　rest　
of　us。　
〃The　vampires　who　are　ing　to　help　us　are　not　the　same　as　we　are；〃　Edward　said。　〃Tanya"s　family　is　
the　only　one　besides　ours　with　a　reverence　for　human　life；　and　even　they　don"t　think　much　of　werewolves。　
I　think　it　might　be　safer—〃　
〃I　can　take　care　of　myself；〃　Jacob　interrupted。　
〃Safer　for　Renesmee；〃　Edward　continued；　〃if　the　choice　to　believe　our　story　about　her　is　not　tainted　by　
an　association　with　werewolves。〃　
〃Some　friends。　They"d　turn　on　you　just　because　of　who　you　hang　out　with　now？〃　
〃I　think　they　would　mostly　be　tolerant　under　normal　circumstances。　But　you　need　to　understand　
—accepting　Nessie　will　not　be　a　simple　thing　for　any　of　them。　Why　make　it　even　the　slightest　bit　harder？〃　
Carlisle　had　explained　the　laws　about　immortal　children　to　Jacob　last　night。　〃The　immortal　children　were　
really　that　bad？〃　he　asked。　
〃You　can"t　imagine　the　depth　of　the　scars　they"ve　left　in　the　collective　vampire　psyche。〃　
〃Edward　。。。〃　It　was　still　odd　to　hear　Jacob　use　Edward"s　name　without　bitterness。　
〃I　know；　Jake。　I　know　how　hard　it　is　to　be　away　from　her。　We"ll　play　it　by　ear—　see　how　they　react　to　
her。　In　any　case；　Nessie　is　going　to　have　to　be　incognito　off　and　on　in　the　next　few　weeks。　She"ll　need　to　
stay　at　the　cottage　until　the　right　moment　for　us　to　introduce　her。　As　long　as　you　keep　a　safe　distance　
from　the　main　house　。。。〃　
〃I　can　do　that。　pany　in　the　morning；　huh？〃　
〃Yes。　The　closest　of　our　friends。　In　this　particular　case；　it"s　probably　better　if　we　get　things　out　in　the　
open　as　soon　as　possible。　You　can　stay　here。　Tanya　knows　about　you。　She"s　even　met　Seth。〃　
〃You　should　tell　Sam　what"s　going　on。　There　might　be　strangers　in　the　woods　soon。〃　
〃Good　point。　Though　I　owe　him　some　silence　after　last　night。〃　
〃Listening　to　Alice　is　usually　the　right　thing。〃　
Jacob"s　teeth　ground　together；　and　I　could　see　that　he　shared　Sam"s　feelings　about　what　Alice　and　
Jasper　had　done。　
While　they　were　talking；　I　wandered　toward　the　back　windows；　trying　to　look　distracted　and　anxious。　
Not　a　difficult　thing　to　do。　I　leaned　my　head　against　the　wall　that　curved　away　from　the　living　room　
toward　the　dining　room；　right　next　to　one　of　the　puter　desks。　I　ran　my　fingers　against　the　keys　while　
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staring　into　the　forest；　trying　to　make　it　look　like　an　absentminded　thing。　Did　vampires　ever　do　things　
absentmindedly？　I　didn"t　think　anyone　was　paying　particular　attention　to　me；　but　I　didn"t　turn　to　make　
sure。　The　monitor　glowed　to　life。　I　stroked　my　fingers　across　the　keys　again。　Then　I　drummed　them　very　
quietly　on　the　wooden　desktop；　just　to　make　it　seem　random。　Another　stroke　across　the　keys。　
I　scanned　the　screen　in　my　peripheral　vision。　
No　J。　Jenks；　but　there　was　a　Jason　Jenks。　A　lawyer。　I　brushed　the　keyboard；　trying　to　keep　a　rhythm；　
like　the　preoccupied　stroking　of　a　cat　you"d　all　but　forgotten　on　your　lap。　Jason　Jenks　had　a　fancy　
website　for　his　firm；　but　the　address　on　the　homepage　was　wrong。　In　Seattle；　but　in　a　different　zip　code。　I　
noted　the　phone　number　and　then　stroked　the　keyboard　in　rhythm。　This　time　I　searched　the　address；　but　
nothing　at　all　came　up；　as　if　the　address　didn"t　exist。　I　wanted　to　look　at　a　map；　but　I　decided　I　was　
pushing　my　luck。　One　more　brush；　to　delete　the　history___　
I　continued　staring　out　the　window　and　brushed　the　wood　a　few　times。　I　heard　light　footsteps　crossing　
the　floor　to　me；　and　I　turned　with　what　I　hoped　was　the　same　expression　as　before。　
Renesmee　reached　for　me；　and　I　held　my　arms　open。　She　launched　herself　into　them；　smelling　strongly　of　
werewolf；　and　nestled　her　head　against　my　neck。　
I　didn"t　know　if　I　could　stand　this。　As　much　as　I　feared　for　my　life；　for　Edward"s；　for　the　rest　of　my　
family"s；　it　was　not　the　same　as　the　gutwrenching　terror　I　felt　for　my　daughter。　There　had　to　be　a　way　to　
save　her；　even　if　that　was　the　only　thing　I　could　do。　
Suddenly；　I　knew　that　this　was　all　I　wanted　anymore。　The　rest　I　would　bear　if　I　had　to；　but　not　her　life　
being　forfeited。　Not　that。　
She　was　the　one　thing　I　simply　had　to　save。　
Would　Alice　have　known　how　I　would　feel？　
Renesmee"s　hand　touched　my　cheek　lightly。　
She　showed　me　my　own　face；　Edward"s；　Jacob"s；　Rosalie"s；　Esme"s；　Carlisle"s；　Alice"s；　Jasper"s；　flipping　
through　all　our　family"s　faces　faster　and　faster。　Seth　and　Leah。　Charlie；　Sue；　and　Billy。　Over　and　over　
again。　Worrying；　like　the　rest　of　us　were。　She　was　only　worrying；　though。　Jake　had　kept　the　worst　from　
her　as　far　as　I　could　tell。　The　part　about　how　we　had　no　hope；　how　we　all　were　going　to　die　in　a　month"s　
time。　
She　settled　on　Alice"s　face；　longing　and　confused。　Where　was　Alice？　
〃I　don"t　know；〃　I　whispered。　〃But　she"s　Alice。　She"s　doing　the　right　thing；　like　always。〃　
The　right　thing　for　Alice；　anyway。　I　hated　thinking　of　her　that　way；　but　how　else　could　the　situation　be　
understood？　
Renesmee　sighed；　and　the　longing　intensified。　
〃I　miss　her；　too。〃　
I　felt　my　face　working；　trying　to　find　the　expression　that　went　with　the　grief　inside。　My　eyes　felt　strange　
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and　dry；　they　blinked　against　the　unfortable　feeling。　I　bit　my　lip。　When　I　took　my　next　breath；　the　air　
hitched　in　my　throat；　like　I　was　choking　on　it。　
Renesmee　pulled　back　to　look　at　me；　and　I　saw　my　face　mirrored　in　her　thoughts　and　in　her　eyes。　I　
looked　like　Esme　had　this　morning。　
So　this　was　what　it　felt　like　to　cry。　
Renesmee"s　eyes　glistened　wetly　as　she　watched　my　face。　She　stroked　my　face；　showing　me　nothing；　
just　trying　to　soothe　me。　
I"d　never　though