madness to wait; when he"s clearly developed beyond what Carlisle had guessed。 Bella"s too fragile to delay。〃 I kept getting my legs knocked out from under me。 First; counting on Edward"s hatred of the thing so much。 Now; I"d realized that I thought of those four days as a sure thing。 I"d banked on them。 The endless ocean of grief that waited stretched out before me。 I tried to catch my breath。 Edward waited。 I stared at his face while I recovered; recognizing another change there。 〃You think she"s going to make it;〃 I whispered。 〃Yes。 That was the other thing I wanted to talk to you about。〃 I couldn"t say anything。 After a minute; he went on。 〃Yes;〃 he said again。 〃Waiting; as we have been; for the child to be ready; that was insanely dangerous。 At any moment it could have been too late。 But if we"re proactive about this; if we act quickly; I see no reason why it should not go well。 Knowing the child"s mind is unbelievably helpful。 Thankfully; Bella and Rose agree with me。 Now that I"ve convinced them it"s safe for the child if we proceed; there"s nothing to keep this from working。〃 〃When will Carlisle be back?〃 I asked; still whispering。 I hadn"t got my breath back yet。 〃By noon tomorrow。〃 My knees buckled。 I had to grab the car to hold myself up。 Edward reached out like he was offering support; but then he thought better of it and dropped his hands。 〃I"m sorry;〃 he whispered。 〃I am truly sorry for the pain this causes you; Jacob。 Though you hate me; I must admit that I don"t feel the same about you。 I think of you as a。。。 a brother in many ways。 A rade Page 205 Generatedby ABC Amber LIT Converter; :。processtext。abclit。html in arms; at the very least。 I regret your suffering more than you realize。 But Bella is going to survive〃 —when he said that his voice was fierce; even violent—〃and I know that"s what really matters to you。〃 He was probably right。 It was hard to tell。 My head was spinning。 〃So I hate to do this now; while you"re already dealing with too much; but; clearly; there is little time。 I have to ask you for something—to beg; if I must。〃 〃I don"t have anything left;〃 I choked out。 He lifted his hand again; as if to put it on my shoulder; but then let it drop like before and sighed。 〃I know how much you have given;〃 he said quietly。 〃But this is something you do have; and only you。 I"m asking this of the true Alpha; Jacob。 I"m asking this of Ephraim"s heir。〃 I was way past being able to respond。 〃I want your permission to deviate from what we agreed to in our treaty with Ephraim。 I want you to grant us an exception。 I want your permission to save her life。 You know 111 do it anyway; but I don"t want to break faith with you if there is any way to avoid it。 We never intended to go back on our word; and we don"t do it lightly now。 I want your understanding; Jacob; because you know exactly why we do this。 I want the alliance between our families to survive when this is over。〃 I tried to swallow。 Sam; I thought。 It"s Sam you want。 〃No。 Sam"s authority is assumed。 It belongs to you。 You"ll never take it from him; but no one can rightfully agree to what I"m asking except for you〃 It"s not my decision。 〃It is; Jacob; and you know it。 Your word on this will condemn us or absolve us。 Only you can give this to me。〃 can"t think。 I don"t know。 〃We don"t have much time。〃 He glanced back toward the house。 No; there was no time。 My few days had bee a few hours。 don"t know。 Let me think。 Just give me a minute here; okay? 〃Yes。〃 I started walking to the house; and he followed。 Crazy how easy it was; walking through the dark with a vampire right beside me。 It didn"t feel unsafe; or even unfortable; really。 It felt like walking next to anybody。 Well; anybody who smelled bad。 There was a movement in the brush at the edge of the big lawn; and then a low whimper。 Seth shrugged through the ferns and loped over to us。 〃Hey; kid;〃 I muttered。 Page 206 Generatedby ABC Amber LIT Converter; :。processtext。abclit。html He dipped his head; and I patted his shoulder。 〃S"all cool;〃 I lied。 〃I"ll tell you about it later。 Sorry to take off on you like that。〃 He grinned at me。 〃Hey; tell your sister to back off now; okay? Enough。〃 Seth nodded once。 I shoved against his shoulder this time。 〃Get back to work。 I"ll spell you in a bit。〃 Seth leaned against me; shoving back; and then he galloped into the trees。 〃He has one of the purest; sincerest; kindest minds I"ve ever heard;〃 Edward murmured when he was outof sight。 〃You"re lucky to have his thoughts to share。〃 〃I know that;〃! grunted。 We started toward the house; and both of our heads snapped up when we heard the sound of someone sucking through a straw。 Edward was in a hurry then。He darted up the porch stairs and was gone。 〃Bella; love; Ithought you were sleeping;〃 I heard him say。 〃I"m sorry; I wouldn"t have left。〃 〃Don"t worry。 Ijust got so thirsty—it woke me up。It"s a good thing Carlisle is bringing more。 This kid is going to need it when he gets out of me。〃 〃True。 That"s a good point。〃 〃I wonder if he"ll want anything else;〃 she mused。 〃I suppose we"ll find out。〃 I walked through the door。 Alice said; 〃Finally;〃 and Bella"s eyes flashed to me。 That infuriating; irresistible smile broke across her face for one second。 Then it faltered; and her face fell。 Her lips puckered; like she was trying not to cry。 I wanted to punch Leah right in her stupid mouth。 〃Hey; Bells;〃 Isaid quickly。 〃How ya doing?〃 〃I"m fine;〃 she said。 〃Big day today; huh? Lots of new stuff。〃 〃You don"t have to do that; Jacob。〃 〃Don"t know what you"re talking about;〃 I said; going to sit on the arm of the sofa by her head。 Edward had the floor there already。 Page 207 Generatedby ABC Amber LIT Converter; :。processtext。abclit。html She gave me a reproachful look。 〃I"m so s—〃 she started to say。 I pinched her lips together between my thumb and finger。 〃Jake;〃 she mumbled; trying t