re the reason your hair stands on end when you smell me。 They are the substance of your nightmares； the dread behind your instincts。 I"m not unaware of that。〃 〃And you take her to them like a bottle of wine for a party！〃 he shouted。 〃You think she"d be better off if I left her here alone； with Victoria stalking her？〃 〃We can handle the redhead。〃 〃Then why is she still hunting？〃 Jacob growled； and a shudder rippled through his torso。 〃Stop that！〃 I shouted at them both； wild with impatience。 〃Argue when we get back； let"s go！〃 Alice turned for the car； disappearing in her haste。 I hurried after her； pausing automatically to turn and lock the door。 Jacob caught my arm with a shivering hand。 〃Please； Bella。 I"m begging。〃 His dark eyes were glistening with tears。 A lump filled my throat。 〃Jake； I have to—〃 〃You don"t； though。 You really don"t。 You could stay here with me。 You could stay alive。 For Charlie。 For me。〃 The engine of Carlisle"s Mercedes purred； the rhythm of the thrumming spiked when Alice revved it impatiently。 I shook my head； tears spattering from my eyes with the sharp motion。 I pulled my arm free； and he didn"t fight me。 〃Don"t die； Bella；〃 he choked out。 〃Don"t go。 Don"t。〃 What if I never saw him again？ The thought pushed me past the silent tears； a sob broke out from my chest。 I threw my arms around his waist and hugged for one tooshort moment； burying my tearwet face against his chest。 He put his big hand on the back of my hair； as if to hold me there。 〃Bye； Jake。〃 I pulled his hand from my hair； and kissed his palm。 I couldn"t bear to look at his face。 〃Sorry；〃 I whispered。 Then I spun and raced for the car。 The door on the passenger side was open and waiting。 I threw my backpack over the headrest and slid in； slamming the door behind me。 〃Take care of Charlie！〃 I turned to shout out the window； but Jacob was nowhere in sight。 As Alice stomped on the gas and—with the tires screeching like human screams—spun us around to face the road； I caught sight of a shred of white near the edge of the trees。 A piece of a shoe。 19。 HATE WE MADE OUR FLIGHT WITH SECONDS TO SPARE； AND THEN the true torture began。 The plane sat idle on the tarmac while the flight attendants strolled—so casually—up and down the aisle； patting the bags in the overhead partments to make sure everything fit。 The pilots leaned out of the cockpit； chatting with them as they passed。 Alice"s hand was hard on my shoulder； holding me in my seat while I bounced anxiously up and down。 〃It"s faster than running；〃 she reminded me in a low voice。 I just nodded in time with my bouncing。 At last the plane rolled lazily from the gate； building speed with a gradual steadiness that tortured me further。 I expected some kind of relief when we achieved liftoff； but my frenzied impatience didn"t lessen。 Alice lifted the phone on the back of the seat in front of her before we"d stopped climbing； turning her back on the stewardess who eyed her with disapproval。 Something about my expression stopped the stewardess from ing over to protest。 I tried to tune out what Alice was murmuring to Jasper； I didn"t want to hear the words again； but some slipped through。 〃I can"t be sure； I keep seeing him do different things； he keeps changing his mind… A killing spree through the city； attacking the guard； lifting a car over his head in the main square… mostly things that would expose them—he knows that"s the fastest way to force a reaction…〃 〃No； you can"t。〃 Alice"s voice dropped till it was nearly inaudible； though I was sitting inches from her。 Contrarily； I listened harder。 〃Tell Emmett no… Well； go after Emmett and Rosalie and bring them back… Think about it； Jasper。 If he sees any of us； what do you think he will do？〃 She nodded。 〃Exactly。 I think Bella is the only chance—if there is a chance… I"ll do everything that can be done； but prepare Carlisle； the odds aren"t good。〃 She laughed then； and there was a catch in her voice。 〃I"ve thought of that… Yes； I promise。〃 Her voice became pleading。 〃Don"t follow me。 I promise； Jasper。 One way or another； I"ll get out… And I love you。〃 She hung up； and leaned back in her seat with her eyes closed。 〃I hate lying to him。〃 〃Tell me everything； Alice；〃 I begged。 〃I don"t understand。 Why did you tell Jasper to stop Emmett； why can"t they e help us？〃 〃Two reasons；〃 she whispered； her eyes still closed。 〃The first I told him。 We could try to stop Edward ourselves—if Emmett could get his hands on him； we might be able to stop him long enough to convince him you"re alive。 But we can"t sneak up on Edward。 And if he sees us ing for him； he"ll just act that much faster。 He"ll throw a Buiclc through a wall or something； and the Volturi will take him down。 〃That"s the second reason of course； the reason I couldn"t say to Jasper。 Because if they"re there and the Volturi kill Edward； they"ll fight them。 Bella。〃 She opened her eyes and stared at me； beseeching。 〃If there were any chance we could win… if there were a way that the four of us could save my brother by fighting for him； maybe it would be different。 But we can"t； and； Bella； I can"t lose Jasper like that。〃 I realized why her eyes begged for my understanding。 She was protecting Jasper； at our expense； and maybe at Edward"s； too。 I understood； and I did not think badly of her。 I nodded。 〃Couldn"t Edward hear you； though。"〃 I asked。 〃Wouldn"t he know； as soon as he heard your thoughts； that I was alive； that there was no point to this？〃 Not that there was any justification； either way。 I still couldn"t believe that he was capable of reacting like this。 It made no sense！ I remembered with painful clarity his words that day on the sofa； while we watched Romeo and Juliet kill themselves； one after the other。 I wasn"t going to live without you； he"d said； as if it should be such an obvious conclusion。 But the words he had spoken in the forest as he"d left me had canceled all that out—forcefully。 〃If he were listening；〃 she explained。 〃But bel