《1 twilight暮色》第18章


question of me looking away。 My hands started to shake。 
〃Mr。 Cullen?〃 the teacher called; seeking the answer to a question that I 
hadn"t heard。 
〃The Krebs Cycle;〃 Edward answered; seeming reluctant as he turned to 
look at Mr。 Banner。 
I looked down at my book as soon as his eyes released me; trying to find 
my place。 Cowardly as ever; I shifted my hair over my right shoulder to 
hide my face。 I couldn"t believe the rush of emotion pulsing through me — 
just because he"d happened to look at me for the first time in a 
halfdozen weeks。 I couldn"t allow him to have this level of influence 
over me。 It was pathetic。 More than pathetic; it was unhealthy。 
I tried very hard not to be aware of him for the rest of the hour; and; 
since that was impossible; at least not to let him know that I was aware 
of him。 When the bell rang at last; I turned my back to him to gather my 
things; expecting him to leave immediately as usual。 
〃Bella?〃 His voice shouldn"t have been so familiar to me; as if I"d known 
the sound of it all my life rather than for just a few short weeks。 
I turned slowly; unwillingly。 I didn"t want to feel what I knew I would 
feel when I looked at his tooperfect face。 My expression was wary when I 
finally turned to him; his expression was unreadable。 He didn"t say 
anything。 
〃What? Are you speaking to me again?〃 I finally asked; an unintentional 
note of petulance in my voice。 
His lips twitched; fighting a smile。 〃No; not really;〃 he admitted。 
I closed my eyes and inhaled slowly through my nose; aware that I was 
gritting my teeth。 He waited。 
〃Then what do you want; Edward?〃 I asked; keeping my eyes closed; it was 
easier to talk to him coherently that way。 
〃I"m sorry。〃 He sounded sincere。 〃I"m being very rude; I know。 But it"s 
better this way; really。〃 
I opened my eyes。 His face was very serious。 
〃I don"t know what you mean;〃 I said; my voice guarded。 
〃It"s better if we"re not friends;〃 he explained。 〃Trust me。〃 
My eyes narrowed。 I"d heard that before。 
〃It"s too bad you didn"t figure that out earlier;〃 I hissed through my 
teeth。 〃You could have saved yourself all this regret。〃 
〃Regret?〃 The word; and my tone; obviously caught him off guard。 〃Regret 
for what?〃 
〃For not just letting that stupid van squish me。〃 
He was astonished。 He stared at me in disbelief。 
When he finally spoke; he almost sounded mad。 〃You think I regret saving 
your life?〃 
〃I know you do;〃 I snapped。 
〃You don"t know anything。〃 He was definitely mad。 
I turned my head sharply away from him; clenching my jaw against all the 
wild accusations I wanted to hurl at him。 I gathered my books together; 
then stood and walked to the door。 I meant to sweep dramatically out of 
the room; but of course I caught the toe of my boot on the door jamb and 
dropped my books。 I stood there for a moment; thinking about leaving 
them。 Then I sighed and bent to pick them up。 He was there; he"d already 
stacked them into a pile。 He handed them to me; his face hard。 
〃Thank you;〃 I said icily。 
His eyes narrowed。 
〃You"re wele;〃 he retorted。 
I straightened up swiftly; turned away from him again; and stalked off to 
Gym without looking back。 
Gym was brutal。 We"d moved on to basketball。 My team never passed me the 
ball; so that was good; but I fell down a lot。 Sometimes I took people 
with me。 Today I was worse than usual because my head was so filled with 
Edward。 I tried to concentrate on my feet; but he kept creeping back into 
my thoughts just when I really needed my balance。 
It was a relief; as always; to leave。 I almost ran to the truck; there 
were just so many people I wanted to avoid。 The truck had suffered only 
minimal damage in the accident。 I"d had to replace the taillights; and if 
I"d had a real paint job; I would have touched that up。 Tyler"s parents 
had to sell their van for parts。 
I almost had a stroke when I rounded the corner and saw a tall; dark 
figure leaning against the side of my truck。 Then I realized it was just 
Eric。 I started walking again。 
〃Hey; Eric;〃 I called。 
〃Hi; Bella。〃 
〃What"s up?〃 I said as I was unlocking the door。 I wasn"t paying 
attention to the unfortable edge in his voice; so his next words took 
me by surprise。 
〃Uh; I was just wondering… if you would go to the spring dance with me?〃 
His voice broke on the last word。 
〃I thought it was girls" choice;〃 I said; too startled to be diplomatic。 
〃Well; yeah;〃 he admitted; shamefaced。 
I recovered my posure and tried to make my smile warm。 〃Thank you for 
asking me; but I"m going to be in Seattle that day。〃 
〃Oh;〃 he said。 〃Well; maybe next time。〃 
〃Sure;〃 I agreed; and then bit my lip。 I wouldn"t want him to take that 
too literally。 
He slouched off; back toward the school。 I heard a low chuckle。 
Edward was walking past the front of my truck; looking straight forward; 
his lips pressed together。 I yanked the door open and jumped inside; 
slamming it loudly behind me。 I revved the engine deafeningly and 
reversed out into the aisle。 Edward was in his car already; two spaces 
down; sliding out smoothly in front of me; cutting me off。 He stopped 
there — to wait for his family; I could see the four of them walking this 
way; but still by the cafeteria。 I considered taking out the rear of his 
shiny Volvo; but there were too many witnesses。 I looked in my rearview 
mirror。 A line was beginning to form。 Directly behind me; Tyler Crowley 
was in his recently acquired used Sentra; waving。 I was too aggravated to 
acknowledge him。 
While I was sitting there; looking everywhere but at the car in front of 
me; I heard a knock on my passenger side window。 I looked over; it was 
Tyler。 I glanced back in my rearview mirror; confused。 His car was still 
running; the door left open。 I leaned across the cab to crank the window 
down。 It was stiff。 I got it halfway down; then gave up。 
〃I"m sorry; Tyler; I"m stuck behind Cullen。〃 I was annoyed — obviously 
the holdup wasn"t my fault。 
〃Oh; I know — I just wanted to ask you something while we"re trapped 
here。〃 He grinned。 
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