《5 midnight sun午夜阳光》第55章

t　And　I　d　rather　be　alone　with　Bella　as　long　as　she　was　willing　to　be　alone　with　me。　Do　you　mind　if　I　drive　Bella　home　tonight？　I　said　to　Jessica　before　Bella　could　respond。　That　way　you　won　t　have　to　wait　while　she　eats。　Uh；　no　problem；　I　guess　Jessica　stared　intently　at　Bella；　looking　for　some　sign　that　this　was　what　she　wanted。　I　want　to　stay　but　she　probably　wants　him　to　herself。　thought。　At　the　same　time；　she　watched　Bella　wink。　Bella　winked？　Okay；　Angela　said　quickly；　in　a　hurry　to　be　out　of　the　way　if　that　was　what　Bella　wanted。　And　it　seemed　that　she　did　want　that。　See　you　tomorrow；　Bella　Edward。　She　struggled　to　say　my　name　in　a　casual　tone。　Then　she　grabbed　Jessica　s　hand　and　began　towing　her　away。　I　would　have　to　find　some　way　to　thank　Angela　for　this。　Jessica　s　car　was　close　by　and　in　a　bright　circle　of　light　cast　by　a　streetlamp。　Bella　watched　them　carefully；　a　little　crease　of　concern　between　her　eyes；　until　they　were　in　the　car；　so　she　must　be　fully　aware　of　the　danger　she　d　been　in。　Jessica　waved　as　she　drove　away；　and　Bella　waved　back。　It　wasn　t　until　the　car　disappeared　that　she　took　a　deep　breath　and　turned　to　look　up　at　me。　Honestly；　I　m　not　hungry；　she　said。　Why　had　she　waited　for　them　to　be　gone　before　speaking？　Did　she　truly　want　to　be　alone　with　me　even　now；　after　witnessing　my　homicidal　rage？　Whether　that　was　the　case　or　not；　she　was　going　to　eat　something。　Humor　me；　I　said。　I　held　the　restaurant　door　open　for　her　and　waited。　She　sighed；　and　walked　through。　I　walked　beside　her　to　the　podium　where　the　hostess　waited。　Bella　still　seemed　entirely　selfpossessed。　I　wanted　to　touch　her　hand；　her　forehead；　to　check　her　temperature。　But　my　cold　hand　would　repulse　her；　as　it　had　before。　Oh；　my；　the　hostess　s　rather　loud　mental　voice　intruded　into　my　consciousness。　My；　oh　my。　It　seemed　to　be　my　night　to　turn　heads。　Or　was　I　only　noticing　it　more　because　I　wished　so　much　that　Bella　would　see　me　this　way？　We　were　always　attractive　to　our　prey。　I　d　never　thought　so　much　about　it　before。　Usually　unless；　as　with　people　like　Shelly　Cope　and　Jessica　Stanley；　there　was　constant　repetition　to　dull　the　horror　the　fear　kicked　in　fairly　quickly　after　the　initial　attraction　Who　wouldn　t？　Jess
A　table　for　two？　I　prompted　when　the　hostess　didn　t　speak。　Oh；　er；　yes。　Wele　to　La　Bella　Italia。　Mmm！　me。　Her　thoughts　were　preoccupied　calculating。　What　a　voice！　Please　follow　Maybe　she　s　his　cousin。　She　couldn　t　be　his　sister；　they　don　t　look　anything　alike。　But　family；　definitely。　He　can　t　be　with　her。　Human　eyes　were　clouded；　they　saw　nothing　clearly。　How　could　this　smallminded　woman　find　my　physical　lures　snares　for　prey　so　attractive；　and　yet　be　unable　to　see　the　soft　perfection　of　the　girl　beside　me？　Well；　no　need　to　help　her　out；　just　in　case；　the　hostess　thought　as　she　led　us　to　a　familysized　table　in　the　middle　of　the　most　crowded　part　of　the　restaurant。　Can　I　give　him　my　number　while　she　s　there　？　she　mused。　I　pulled　a　bill　from　my　back　pocket。　money　was　involved。　People　were　invariably　cooperative　when　Bella　was　already　taking　the　seat　the　hostess　indicated　without　objection。　I　shook　my　head　at　her；　and　she　hesitated；　cocking　her　head　to　one　side　with　curiosity。　Yes；　she　would　be　very　curious　tonight。　A　crowd　was　not　the　ideal　place　for　this　conversation。　Perhaps　something　more　private？　I　requested　of　the　hostess；　handing　her　the　money。　Her　eyes　widened　in　surprise；　and　then　narrowed　while　her　hand　curled　around　the　tip。　Sure。　She　peeked　at　the　bill　while　she　led　us　around　a　dividing　wall。　Fifty　dollars　for　a　better　table？　Rich；　too。　That　makes　sense　I　bet　his　jacket　cost　more　than　my　last　paycheck。　Damn。　Why　does　he　want　privacy　with　her？　She　offered　us　a　booth　in　a　quiet　corner　of　the　restaurant　where　no　one　would　be　able　to　see　us　to　see　Bella　s　reactions　to　whatever　I　would　tell　her。　I　had　no　clue　as　to　what　she　would　want　from　me　tonight。　Or　what　I　would　give　her。　How　much　had　she　guessed？　herself？　What　explanation　of　tonight　s　events　had　she　told　How　s　this？　the　hostess　asked。　Perfect；　I　told　her　and；　feeling　slightly　annoyed　by　her　resentful　attitude　toward　Bella；　I　smiled　widely　at　her；　baring　my　teeth。　Let　her　see　me　clearly。　Whoa。　Um　your　server　will　be　right　out。　He　can　t　be　real。　I　must　be　asleep。　Maybe　she　ll　disappear　maybe　I　ll　write　my　number　on　his　plate　with　ketchup　She　wandered　away；　listing　slightly　to　the　side。　Odd。　She　still　wasn　t　frightened。　I　suddenly　remembered　Emmett　teasing　me　in　the　cafeteria；　so　many　weeks　ago。　I　ll　bet　I　could　have　scared　her　better　than　that。　Was　I　losing　my　edge？　You　really　shouldn　t　do　that　to　people；　Bella　interrupted　my　thoughts　in　a
disapproving　tone。　It　s　hardly　fair。　I　hadn　t　frightened　the　I　stared　at　her　critical　expression。　What　did　she　mean？　hostess　at　all；　despite　my　intentions。　Do　what？　Dazzle　them　like　that　she　s　probably　hyperventilating　in　the　kitchen　right　now。　Hmm。　Bella　was　very　nearly　right。　The　hostess　was　only　semicoherent　at　the　moment；　describing　her　incorrect　assessment　of　me　to　her　friend　on　the　wait　staff。　Oh；　e　on；　Bella　chided　me　when　I　didn　t　answer　immediately。　know　the　effect　you　have　on　people。　I　dazzle　people？　That　was　an　interesting　way　of　phrasing　it。　for　tonight。　I　wondered　why　the　difference　You　haven　t　noticed？　she　asked；　still　critical。　their　way　so　easily？　You　have　to　Accurate　enough　Do　you　think　everybody　gets　Do　I　dazzle　you？　I　voiced　my　curiosity　impulsively；　and　then　the　words　were　out；　and　it　was　too　late　to　recall　them。　But　before　I　had　time　to　too　deeply　regret　speaking　the　words　aloud　she　answered；　Frequently。　And　her　cheeks　took　on　a　faint　pink　glow。　I　dazzled　her。　My　silent　heart　swelled　with　a　hope　more　intense　than　I　could　ever　remember　having　felt　before。　Hello；　someone　said；　the　waitress；　introducing　herself。　Her　thoughts　were　loud；　and　more　explicit　than　the　hostess　s；　but　I　tuned　her　out。　I　stared　at　Bella　s　face　instead　of　listening；　watching　the　blood　spreading　under　her　skin；　noticing　not　how　that　made　my　throat　flame；　but　rather　how　it　brightened　her　fair　face；　how　it　set　off　the　cream　of　her　skin　The　waitress　was　waiting　for　something　from　me。　Ah；　she　d　asked　for　our　drink　order。　I　continued　to　stare　at　Bell