the miserie； i deservd it； and would beare my own deservings； but this will not serve； all that i eat or drink； or shall beget； is propagated curse。 o voice once heard delightfully； encrease and multiply； ＇ 730 ＇ now death to hear！ for what can i encrease or multiplie； but curses on my head？ who of all ages to succeed； but feeling the evil on him brought by me； will curse my head； ill fare our ancestor impure； ＇ 735 ＇ for this we may thank adam； but his thanks shall be the execration； so besides mine own that bide upon me； all from mee shall with a fierce reflux on mee redound； on mee as on thir natural center light ＇ 740 ＇ heavie； though in thir place。 o fleeting joyes of paradise； deare bought with lasting woes！ did i request thee； maker； from my clay to mould me man； did i sollicite thee from darkness to promote me； or here place ＇ 745 ＇ in this delicious garden？ as my will concurd not to my being； it were but right and equal to reduce me to my dust； desirous to resigne； and render back all i receavd； unable to performe ＇ 750 ＇ thy terms too hard； by which i was to hold the good i sought not。 to the loss of that； sufficient penaltie； why hast thou added the sense of endless woes？ inexplicable thy justice seems； yet to say truth； too late； ＇ 755 ＇ i thus contest； then should have been refusd those terms whatever； when they were proposd： thou didst accept them； wilt thou enjoy the good； then cavil the conditions？ and though god made thee without thy leave； what if thy son ＇ 760 ＇ prove disobedient； and reprovd； retort； wherefore didst thou beget me？ i sought it not wouldst thou admit for his contempt of thee that proud excuse？ yet him not thy election； but natural necessity begot。 ＇ 765 ＇ 。。 Paradise Lost Ⅹ18 ； god made thee of choice his own； and of his own to serve him； thy reward was of his grace； thy punishment then justly is at his will。 be it so； for i submit； his doom is fair； that dust i am； and shall to dust returne： ＇ 770 ＇ o wel hour whenever！ why delayes his hand to execute what his decree fixd on this day？ why do i overlive； why am i mockt with death； and lengthnd out to deathless pain？ how gladly would i meet ＇ 775 ＇ mortalitie my sentence； and be earth insensible； how glad would lay me down as in my mothers lap！ there i should rest and sleep secure； his dreadful voice no more would thunder in my ears； no fear of worse ＇ 780 ＇ to mee and to my ofspring would torment me with cruel expectation。 yet one doubt pursues me still； least all i cannot die； least that pure breath of life； the spirit of man which god inspird； cannot together perish ＇ 785 ＇ with this corporeal clod； then in the grave； or in some other dismal place who knows but i shall die a living death？ o thought horrid； if true！ yet why？ it was but breath of life that sinnd； what dies but what had life ＇ 790 ＇ and sin？ the bodie properly hath neither。 all of me then shall die： let this appease the doubt； since humane reach no further knows。 for though the lord of all be infinite； is his wrauth also？ be it； man is not so； ＇ 795 ＇ but mortal doomd。 how can he exercise wrath without end on man whom death must end？ can he make deathless death？ that were to make strange contradiction； which to god himself impossible is held； as argument ＇ 800 ＇ of weakness； not of power。 will he； draw out； for angers sake； finite to infinite in punisht man； to satisfie his rigour satisfid never； that were to extend his sentence beyond dust and natures law； ＇ 805 ＇ by which all causes else according still to the reception of thir matter act； not to th extent of thir own spheare。 but say that death be not one stroak； as i supposd； bereaving sense； but endless miserie ＇ 810 ＇ from this day onward； which i feel begun both in me； and without me； and so last to perpetuitie； ay me； that fear es thundring back with dreadful revolution on my defensless head； both death and i ＇ 815 ＇ am found eternal； and incorporate both； nor i on my part single； in mee all posteritie stands curst： fair patrimonie that i must leave ye； sons； o were i able to waste it all my self； and leave ye none！ ＇ 820 ＇ Paradise Lost Ⅹ19 /小。说＋ so disinherited how would ye bless me now your curse！ ah； why should all mankind for one mans fault thus guiltless be condemnd； if guiltless？ but from mee what can proceed； but all corrupt； both mind and will depravd； ＇ 825 ＇ not to do onely； but to will the same with me？ how can they then acquitted stand in sight of god？ him after all disputes forct i absolve： all my evasions vain and reasonings； though through mazes； lead me still ＇ 830 ＇ but to my own conviction： first and last on mee； mee onely； as the sourse and spring of all corruption； all the blame lights due； so might the wrauth。 fond wish！ couldst thou support that burden heavier then the earth to bear ＇ 835 ＇ then all the world much heavier； though divided with that bad woman？ thus what thou desirst； and what thou fearst； alike destroyes all hope of refuge； and concludes thee miserable beyond all past example and future； ＇ 840 ＇ to satan only like both crime and doom。 o conscience； into what abyss of fears and horrors hast thou drivn me； out of which i find no way； from deep to deeper plungd！ thus adam to himself lamented loud ＇ 845 ＇ through the still night； not now； as ere man fell； wholsom and cool； and mild； but with black air acpanied； with damps and dreadful gloom； which to his evil conscience represented all things with double terror： on the ground ＇ 850 ＇ outstretcht he lay； on the cold ground； and oft cursd his creation； death as oft accusd of tardie execution； since denounct the day of his offence。 why es not death； said hee； with one thrice acceptable stroke ＇ 855 ＇ to end me？ shall truth fail to keep her word； justice divine not hastn to be just？ but death es not at call； justice divin