thoughtfully； “what the dearly departed expressed to me in his last moments started to gnaw at me like a worm。 Having caused me to bloody my hands； the final painting loomed larger in my mind； and so； resolving to see it； I went to your Enishte； who no longer summoned any of us to his house。 Not only did he refuse to reveal the painting； he behaved as if nothing were the matter。 There was； he sniffled； neither a painting nor anything else so mysterious that it called for murder！ To preempt further humiliation； and to get his attention； I thereupon confessed that I was the one who killed Elegant Effendi and tossed him into a well。 Yes； then he took me more seriously； but he continued to humiliate me all the same。 How could a man who humiliates his son be a father？ Great Master Osman would bee irate with us； he’d beat us； but he never once humiliated us。 Oh my brothers； we’ve made a grave mistake by betraying him。” I smiled at my brethren whose attention was focused upon my eyes； listening to me as though I lay on my deathbed。 Just as a dying man would； I saw them growing increasingly blurry and moving away from me。 “I murdered your Enishte for two reasons。 First； because he shamelessly forced the great Master Osman into aping the Veian artist； Sebastiano。 Second； because in a moment of weakness； I lowered myself to ask him whether I had a style of my own。” 428 “How did he respond？” “It seems I am possessed of a style。 But ing from him； of course； this was not an insult。 I remembered wondering； in my shame； if this were indeed praise： I considered style to be a variety of rootlessness and dishonor； but doubt was eating at me。 I wanted nothing to do with style； but the Devil was tempting me and I was； furthermore； curious。” “Everybody secretly desires to have a style；” said Black smartly。 “Everybody also desires to have his portrait made； just as Our Sultan did。” “Is this affliction impossible to resist？” I said。 “As this plague spreads； none of us will be able to stand against the methods of the Europeans。” No one was listening to me； however。 Black was recounting the story of a sad Turkmen chieftain who was sent off on a twelve…year exile to China because he’d prematurely expressed his love for the daughter of the shah。 Since he didn’t have a portrait of his beloved； of whom he dreamed for a dozen years； he forgot her face amid the Chinese beauties； and his lovelorn suffering was transformed into a profound trial willed by Allah。 “Thanks to your Enishte； we’ve all learned the meaning of ”portrait；“” I said。 “God willing； one day； we’ll fearlessly tell the story of our own lives the way we actually live them。” “All fables are everybody’s fables；” said Black。 “All illumination is God’s illumination too；” I said； pleting the verse by the poet Hatifi of Herat。 “But as the methods of the Europeans spread； everyone will consider it a special talent to tell other men’s stories as if they were one’s own。” “This is nothing but the will of Satan。” “Unhand me now；” I shouted。 “Let me look upon the world one last time。” They were terrified； and a new confidence rose within me。 “Will you take out the final picture？” Black said。 I gave Black such a look that he was quick to understand I’d do so and he released me。 My heart began to beat rapidly。 I’m certain you’ve long ago discovered my identity； which I’ve been trying to conceal。 Even so； don’t be surprised that I’m behaving like the old masters of Herat； for they would conceal their signatures not to hide their identities； but out of principle and respect for their masters。 Excitedly； I walked through the pitch…black rooms of the lodge； oil lamp in hand； making way for my own 429 pale shadow。 Had the curtain of blackness begun to fall over my eyes； or were these rooms and hallways truly this dark？ How many days and weeks； how much time did I have before going blind？ My shadow and I stopped among the ghosts in the kitchen and lifted up the pages from the clean corner of a dusty cabi before quickly heading back。 Black had followed me as a precaution； but he’d neglected to bring his dagger。 Would I； perchance； consider taking up that dagger and blinding him before I myself went blind？ “I’m pleased that I will see this once again before going blind；” I said with pride。 “I want you all to see it as well。 Look here。” Under the light of the oil lamp； I showed them the final picture； which I’d taken from Enishte’s house the day I killed him。 At first； I watched their curious and timid expressions as they looked at the double…leaf picture。 I circled around and joined them； and I was ever so faintly trembling as I stared。 The lancing of my eyes； or perhaps a sudden rapture； made me feverish。 The pictures we made on various parts of the two pages over the past year—tree； horse； Satan； Death； dog and woman—were arranged； large and small； according to Enishte’s albeit inept new method of position； in such a way that the dearly departed Elegant Effendi’s gilding and borders made us feel we were no longer looking at a page from a book but at the world seen through a window。 In the center of this world； where Our Sultan should’ve been； was my own portrait； which I briefly observed with pride。 I was somewhat unsatisfied with it because after laboring in vain for days； looking into a mirror and erasing and reworking； I was unable to achieve a good resemblance； still； I felt unbridled elation because the picture not only situated me at the center of a vast world； but for some unaccountable and diabolic reason； it made me appear more profound； plicated and mysterious than I actually was。 I wanted only that my artist brethren recognize； understand and share in my exuberanc